Well, I am really looking forward to moving. Going from CHI-Town to the big D, city to rolling suburb. Will be happy to get away from the cold winters. A different job, these lawyers are getting heavy on my nerves, all kind of new folks to be around… will be interesting.

My family being up here will not like it, but then again, I will always be a flight away.

Handler is posting for a job in D very soon, and prob be moving in next 6-8 weeks. I’ll be able to find a job away from Help Desk (lvl 1, 2, and 3) and away from computer fixing. Been doing this for way to long, and users are REALLY getting on my nerves. Not sure if it is just me getting older or what, but stupidity is running rampit around nowadays. We have a few that would be ideal poster children for “Why In The Wild Mothers Eat Their Young”… I just want to find a brain dead job of, here is want needs done, and I get to do it… Customer Service is not an option for me any more.

Sorry, I kind of live by the Foamy Squirrel saying… Stupidity Hurts My Head… Stop It! (illwillpress.com for Foamy.. great site.)

May I ask when the Republicans will go the way of the Wig Party? The Republican party was created by Abe because the Wig’s were getting out of control. He stood up, said here is a new party and here is what we stand for.

The GOP really need to be revamped again, due to all the silly things they keep doing. This is NOT a Christan country, this is a country founded on Freedom of multiple religions. Really need to stop pushing your morals on the rest of us who are not in your little church. Wake up and quit judging people, the people around you are not as stupid as you think. And stop trying to “protect” marriage by going after “the gays”. How about going after those who, hm, let see, break on of the Unforgivables, oops, wait that was changed just to Commandments cause you know how real human males are, and since priest “work” on Sundays, well. Adultry, Divorce, etc, are what is killing marriage, want to protect it, START THERE!!! I don’t care if you want to marry your own sex or other sex, you should have ALL the rights (1400+ federal is given for being married). You go to the Town Hall/ Government building for your marriage license.. NOT THE CHURCH!!!

I mean really, shouting at the president during his joint session has NEVER been done before. Where is your respect for if not the man but the OFFICE he holds??? I can see his opponent getting 700K+ of donations within a day or so. If I was in that state I would be sending money too, as much as I could spare. Looks like another Democrat is going to get another seat… LOL Looking at the picture of him, and hearing the “apology” .. I’m sorry, I would not have accepted it at all. You want to go down in history do something good for the country, like vote yes on health care bill, not be the first in history to shout back at the president during a major speech.

Trying to kill or want to start over the Health care reform??? You want to start over? 40+ years of work, you want to start over? I’m sorry, WHAT??? Let’s see you are telling people that YOUR OWN health care program that the Government provides for you, is NOT GOOD ENOUGH for the general public??? Really??? Drop your care, and go try to get it normally, not telling them you are a government employee or anything, but a off the street person wanting health insurance… I want you to pay that premium for a while and then have your opponent get the votes next time around, and lets see if you can maintain that payment… My own mother who was a housewife with no job, and few medical issues, like open heart in her past, diabetes, can’t get health insurance. She is not old enough yet for Medicare… what int he world is she supposed to do? Pray harder than she already does for something to come up so she can live???

The GOP keeps going the way they are, I am buying stock in Lions. Cause I know where they will be headed…

Sorry, long rant…

Remember always those who are no longer with us due to this day in 2001. Remember always those who risked their lives to save others on this day in 2001.

Never forget all that happened.

To all the families, we still grieve with you.

Talk about slaking… Dec 4th 2007 was last time I ranted… ICK.

Quick update:

1 – Frank and I are still together and moved in together earlier this year.
2 – Still work for lawyers… OUCH… I like to borrow the nice phrase “Stupidity hurts my head… Stop It” from Foamy Squirrel (www.illwillpress.com)
3 – As for working out… well lets just say out of sight out of mind… so been lazy, canceled the membership to save 75 bucks a month.
4 – Getting Frank more involved with Leather, still slowly, but getting there. Was thinking of talking to him about joining CHC (Chicago Hellfire Club), but maybe moving to another state/city in next few months for his work.

So, short short version. Will try to start keeping up with this again, but we shall see.

OK, OK, OK… it’s been over a month since last post. RL happened sorry. Ok, last post was about Toto going wild. Well, Toto and the group was a major hit, esp Frank, being Dorothy. A 7 foot tall Dorothy with full beard was a sight. We did good though, we got First Place Group for the event, not to shabby.

The week off of work was nice as well, but spent the weekend (Frank went to see his Mom for her birthday) redoing my desktop computer. It was freezing up when I tried to play any of my games. Found out after 2 formats and OS installs it was the anti-virus software (McAfee), that was killing everything. So, I went back to Norton.

Spent the last holiday with family, and boy what questions I got from them about Frank and such. Frank went back to his family’s so he did not join me in my family fun. They are a hoot, but after a few hours it was definitely time to go home. I do miss Frank when he is out of town, can’t help it, but I kind of got used to the big handsome lug being around.

Got a Wii, and that and spending time with Frank, and work has been taking up a lot of my time. Yea, Frank is still a bit wet behind the ears on the whole Puppy thing, but we are still having a good time without going fully into it. But, never know with him, he comes up with things some times that even startles me. But, we will take it one step at a time with this kind of thing.

So, hopefully with the whole X-Mas thing coming up I will have time to post a bit more often, I will “TRY” to do at least once a week, maybe more.

Well, the fur idea was good, but not had a chance to go to the fabric store. Frank and I were chatting and he came up with another idea. Chaps, leather tank, collar, and basically go “Yeah I am Toto damnit, what have you got to say about it?”. I kind of like that idea better than the fur. A Toto gone wild type.

Now if that tail comes in, that would be a fur costume.

OK, to explain the tail. Both of us thought it a interesting idea to get one of those Puppy tails that have that are also butt plugs. I could put a hold in a pair of shorts and walk around with the tail in. Get a few reactions that way. And Frank, being the sweetheart he is, ordered a Fox tail, look more like a real tail, and more wolf like… Got it in black with a small bit of white on the tip of it.

So, doing a pair of black shorts with chaps, leather tank, and collar on with the tail… I think we be the talk of the party. Or at least get about 500 pictures taken, and I have mixed about that as is.

For those who know me, I do not like to have my picture taken. I can be behind the camera all day long without a care. But in front of it.. ICK… 
Now, to find a pair of dog ears to wear as well. Frank wants ears, have to find them in the next day or so.

Well, back to work I go…

*Lick*

This pup has been a bit lazy, and hurting lately. Over the weekend, I had to work (woot OT), and after that Frank and I walked about the city. After a bit my back started to hurt a bit, and with the rain, my sinus’ have been hurting for nearly a week. So, we kind of stayed in bed rest of Saturday, and most of Sunday. But then again on Saturday Frank tripped and hurt his back, but then again, he has back problems anyway.

Sunday we took a trip to get a wig for him for his costume for Saturday night, he’s doing Dorothy, and I will be Toto. We are still changing our minds on what to do for Toto, but one thing is clear, I’ll have a leather collar with Toto on it for the party. Something was said about getting fake fur and wrapping up my arms and legs, and we saw a fabric store with some on Saturday after I got out of work, and it was going out of business. I’ll prob stop this week to pick some up.

Not doing good on the diet, nor got to the gym, and we leave on Friday morning for Dallas. Guess I will have to start in big time when we get back next week.

OK, lets see here, Frank and I spent another weekend together, well mostly that is. On Sunday we headed to the airport to pick up his replacement for work. Since he is moving to a different position, a former co-worker of his from Dallas got his position. Let’s just say, they are the type that get into trouble with the other, in a good way. They being friends helps things. She is a riot though. We took her to her the hotel then was going to get something to eat. Frank called his ex to join us. It was interesting time at the table while we were eating. The desert was great, one of those you have to order with your main food cause it takes about 30 minutes to make. Franks replacement, lets call her Bev, was fun to talk to. When we were waiting about 15 minutes after we ate for the desert, the waiter came over and said it would be another 5 minutes. After the 5 minutes Bev was going “I want my desert, it’s been over 5 minutes”, kind of thing. She was doing it in a joking/serious manner. But it came a few minutes after that and she was happy to eat. So, now Frank will be getting into “trouble” at work with her… this can be fun.

Not doing that good on my diet or not hit the gym this week, prob will try for next week at least.

Man time fly’s it seems. Little over a week since last post, and that was a update after nearly 3 weeks. And I used to do this nearly daily.

Well first off, Frank and I are still hanging out with each other. I enjoy his company, and he makes me happy when I am around him. We chat online while at work here and there in between what we are working on. Even at night when we don’t go out for dinner or something, we chat online. Now I know I been working on not being so “needy” and other things as well. I do tend to get over protective or as many would consider jealous sometimes, but I am working that as well. Frank and I spent part of the weekend together again. He had plans for Friday night so we got together on Saturday. I help move some stuff from his Ex’s place to his, then he had some volunteer work to do in the evening so I went home and was napping and playing PS2.

The encounter with his Ex was very interesting. I found to hate him nearly instantly, not cause he was Frank’s Ex, cause he was very Fire Leo. Very demanding, very controlling, etc etc. I did get protective (guess what it’s my job) of Frank while moving some of the heavier items due to his back not being in greatest shape. The way his Ex was barking orders and such to Frank, I got very irritated by it. I mean they have not screwed in many years and he still treating him like they were together. Frank said he’s a good guy otherwise, and that maybe true, but just the way he treated Frank I did not like at all. After things were moved we went for food, and his Ex said something about since they were going to be in Dallas the end of the month they would go out for dinner, and such. I was sitting next to Frank and I just took a bite of food and pushed my leg into Franks a bit when he was saying that. His Ex just kept talking nearly all the time we ate. I just watched the people and ate.

Frank got done with his volunteer work nearly 11pm, and I went over to his place. Sunday was interesting, his Ex’s said something while they were at the volunteer thing about his new boyfriend being very protective, and Frank replied that we were just having fun and not classified as BF’s as of yet. After Frank told me this, I told him, to make the whole BF talk short, just throw a collar on me. OK, explanation on this for those scratching their heads. Basically, if Frank would like to take it to that step, and classify us as BF’s that he would just need to put a collar on me with a name. Granted he said something about the Toto collar, and I told him, if that is the name he wants to call his pup, then it can be that. The Toto collar is for the costume for Dallas at end of this month when we go down. So, if Frank wants to take this to the next step, he just has to present me with a collar that I could wear nearly all the time. Be it a day collar, or a small chain collar. He can even have actual dog tag attached to it with the name he wants to call this pup. Yes, I am a wolf not a dog, but the collar shows others that I am owned by someone else. Not like this pup has been playing since Frank came along. For some reason I stopped playing about 5 weeks ago, he has been the only one I have played with. Even when he was out of town and he said something about the pup going out to play, I tentatively had plans but decided against it. Now, those who read the blog before the re-vamp, know, I let the other decide on where they want to take things. Would I like to go to the next level with Frank, sure, would not mind at all. Could I remain as we are, just having fun, or as some put it Friends with benefits, sure.

Some people might think that I giving him a gift 2 weeks into it would be a bad move. Well, I was out with my Mother and niece and saw that there were a lot of stuff on clearance for Transformers, and thought of Frank and what he said about Bubblebee. Frank being the gamer/geek he is, wanted a transformable Bubblebee for his birthday and his bother got him the statue of him instead. Well, seeing the stuff marked down, I looked around for a transformable one for him. I found this one that not only was transformable but had sounds, moved and was a nice unit. And saw it was marked down 60%, I thought what the hell, he’ll either kill me, or never speak to me again, or at least I get a nice petting out of the deal…  Could I have bought it and set it in the closet and waited to give it to him, sure. But I am not like that. It was more of a friendly “hey they really wanted this and I found it for them, I’ll pick it up” kind of a thing, plus I thought it would make him happy. Which, I come to find out it was the one he was going to buy for himself but held off for a bit due to other things going to need replaced. So, yea, made him happy.

Now the Dallas trip is 2 weeks away and I really need to get on this diet, maybe hit the gym (since I am paying for it) to kind of look good for Frank while we are down there.

OK, enough of my ranting, back to work I go…

OK, been a while since last update. Nearly 3 weeks of fun and such has happened, so lets get updating.

Work is still a killer, work work work. I was supposed to go camping on the weekend of the 21st, BUT, after finding out certain humans were going to be there, I decided to not to go. I was told by Mark, I would not let others dictate where and when I can go. And my response was, I know what I am capable of and do not what to test my shakey control as it is. So, another reason was that Frank was going out of town the weekend after that and he was in town that weekend, SOOO, that was a nice bonus to staying home. I did take and get some shopping done on Friday while I was visiting my family. In the items I bought was something for Frank, something he mentioned one night while we were talking. He really liked it of course, he was surprised I remembered it. And I even got the one version he thought of getting. And before you go dirty, it was something for his shelfs.

Last weekend, I basically stayed home, watched TV, and thats about it for Friday and Saturday. Sunday I had to go to my family’s again for my nieces birthday party. Frank was out of town and was flying in on Sunday night, and since I had the car (got to love Zipcar), I told him I would pick him up instead of taking the slow train back. I left my family, and got to the airport about 30-40 minutes before his plane was to land, and saw the plane was actually a bit early by about 20 minutes. So, not being in the larger of the airports here in town, in over 15 years, I just headed to the baggage claim area for his flight. I sat there for a bit and got a text from him he was down. We met up, and I drove us home.

So, Frank and I are spending time together both week nights and weekend. Just having a good time with him.

I was reading in one magazine they had a small chart regarding the different sub’s and the good, bad and good for’s. On the puppy – the good was “loyal” bad was “needy”, and the good for “fetching beers”. I found this to be kind of true. So, I guess I have to work on not being so “needy” then. The fetching beers I’m pretty good at already…

Well, my next camping trip just got planned last Week. I requested Sept 21st of and going camping that weekend. I just reserved my car for it as well. Yes, I am renting a vehicle, going to cost me about 260 bucks for it for the weekend, but who cares. Things change in a month, and if need be, I can cancel the car 24 hours beforehand (10am Thursday the 20th basically). I don’t want to burden anyone again with me and my stuff.

Now, to order a few things to get them here before I leave. I need like a light, cooler, tarp, heater (yea, may get cold), prob a air bed, and a two 30 deg sleeping bags just to make sure.

So, now is the time to buckle down and really start listing things for camping. Well, things I get now, I don’t have to worry about for next year..

Alright, after last few weeks of happenings, I have made a decision. I’m shooting myself… oops wait wrong letter.

I have come to the decision, ALL MEN ARE PIGS. Not pig as the leather community knows it, either.

Loyalty of this Wolfpup is to no pack right now. I have released all, I protect no one. We shall see what happens in the next few weeks, and months on what I am to become. If someone or others gain my loyalty to become their protector then that can/will change.

I have a few loose ends to tie up in the next or so, but after that, this pup is going to just go out, watch the bloody humans at play, maybe get a play session here or there, and be done with it. I can’t unwind when I am stressing with human drama and work. I’ll talk to the one guy I met last camping trip regarding the club he belongs to when he gets into town next week/weekend. Best thing for this pup is to go out, met new people, and gain some new training opportunities. Maybe even find a few more pups and start a den and/or kennel.

Thats why I will be shortening that 5 year next camping trip, I will be ordering some stuff and going again real soon. So, I have to rent a car and it will cost me 260 bucks basically for the 3 days. Thats not including the camping expense either.. But I figure, I will go by myself, take along some of my chainmaile stuff to start cutting more links, and making new stock. Also, if I met anyone new, I don’t have to worry about anyone but me.

I know my communication has not been the best lately due to work and stuff, but I am working on that.

I finally started working out again. I was working out and stopped when I was in my last relationship due to time constraints. Leaving the house at 7am and getting back 7:30pm made for a long day, and nearest gym was 35 minutes, either way. So, I did not workout for 5 years. I started up again right before Memorial weekend and stopped second week in June due to the merger for work, and getting to stressed out.

Now since things have started to calm down a bit I went to the gym on Tuesday. Was going to go tonight, but meeting a friend for dinner since he will be out of town this weekend. So, I’ll definitely go on Saturday before the gathering I was invited to.

So, needless to say this pup is a bit on the sore/ouchy side today. But, I guess it is for the greater good.. Guess it helps keep my mind off of being unhappy. As well as my urge to strangle someone/lawyers/paralegals/etc.

I have been asked a few times to describe what it means to be a wolf pup, or wolf instead of dog. So, I thought it easiest for those who ask in the future to point them here.

Alright, lets start at the difference in my eye of wolf and dog. Dog’s will bark/woof, no howling, and little growling. Wolf, lots of growling, little to no barking/woofing, and howl (as with regular wolf’s) to rally the troops, or to warn those around them of their territory(Handler(s)/Owner(s), or other wolfpup(s)/pup(s) in the family)and to back off, like normal wolf’s do for land. Another prime factor would be that no matter how “submissive”, or “domesticated” the wolf is, there still is a wild side to them, and need a different type of handling as wolf’s are also more agressive. Collars, most dog pups will jump into them quickly, wolf’s tend to try to shake them off, and have to get used to it. I am also a protective wolf, or peacekeepers, which means that we look out for our pack (friends/Handler(s)/Owner(s)/wolfpup(s)/pup(s)), and defend them if needed.

What I enjoy of being wolfpup, as for what it means to be. I have a major weakness when someone rubs the back of my head and even scratching behind my ears. I go further into pup mode when someone does that. It seems to calm my mind a bit. I tend to do that same thing a dog pup does, is further into pup mode my hands fist up or curl up like paws. It’s also a great thing to service and please the Handler(s)/Owner(s), and keep them happy. As for a collar, wearing one for me is nice, gives a sense of belonging to a Handler(s)/Owner(s), but I tend to try to remove it quickly, guess it is that wild side. The Handler(s)/Owner(s) will need to learn persistence to keep me into a collar (as with most wolf’s).

Many people have a problem with the whole Leather/BDSM/Fetish thing. Some seem to not like it because it is “not normal”, and others love it cause of that. There are what we call the Hard Core ones, “Weekend Warrior’s”, and some are now calling the non-BDSM crowd, Muggles (yes after the Harry Potter writer coined it for normal humans with no magic ability).

The Hard Core ones, are the ones that can do it 24/7 and not get tired of it. Sometimes it’s a Dominatrix for higher, or a Master/Slave type thing, that the couple at home may end up going from shirt and tie from work, and coming home putting on leather/rubber/etc, and getting into the “role” of it. These are most times the Title holders for the leather bars, and such that continue to do things for the community they are in, be it the gay or straight.

Weekend Warriors, these are the ones that either are fun to play with on the weekend, or scare them half to death (from a Hard Core point of view). They are usually the ones, that wear leather or rubber just because it looks or feels “kool”. They don’t really get into any of the school yard activities such as whipping, bondage, pupplay, etc. They just walk around and think they belong.

Muggles, well, lets just say, seeing a cow on the side of the road makes them a bit nervous. And nothing but “vanilla” sex (without playing with leather/rubber etc), is all they do.

And before you ask, yes, I am Hard Core.

Now, the bad part of this life is the fact that most people will either shun you or look at you sideways cause of it. This is why most stay behind the closet door, and not let people know what is going on. Straight people have it easier due to they only having one door to open. Gay’s on the other hand have 2 or more to open. My case 3, one for being Gay, one for being part of the Leather community, and one for being a pup. Yes, even the gay community you have those Muggles, that look at you strange. There are more Weekend Warriors in the gay side, due to the Gym Rats liking the way they look in a leather vest.

Take the case of a friend of mine (whos linked in my Blogroll), he and I have known each other for nearly 7 years and he just came out to me about being a sub (submissive). And he did not have to come out about being straight, I already knew that. He already knew I was gay, but I told him I was sub and a Dom, he was nearly floored. I told him, “what, the leather and the fact about me going to IML did not give it away?” But, I mean even being friends for that long, it still took him a while to tell me this. Read his blog, he just rediscovering himself with the help of his wife. Along with his wife learning the Domme role of things.

Doors, all need to be opened at sometime or another. Be kind when someone tells you that they like to be tied up and spanked for fun. It’s just another part of this little divers world. As they say, it takes all kinds.